So I'm lying in bed at 4am in the morning and it's just hit me that in 3 days I'll be moving back in with my parents O_O. I don't know why but I hadn't really thought about it that much until now. Hopefully it won't be for too long but who know, maybe I won't be able to get a new place as soon as I hope too. This got me thinking, are things going to be the same as when I used to live at home or is it going to be different. I'm not looking forward to having to check in and tell them where I am all the time :/

In other news I may be going to Hong Kong and Japan in January. While I was having dinner with a mate and his girlfriend the other day they kind of invited me to go to Hong Kong with them and I thought, hey if since I'll be living at home I should be able to save up a bit of money so maybe I can do this. I have a good feeling I will be going but I'm still waiting for the go ahead from Andrew so I can go look at getting my plane tickets. While I'm there I'm also planning on going to visit Yuki while he's on holiday in Japan. That'd be fucking sweet. Pretty much want to hang out with some weird greasers and buy beer from vending machines (yesss over the drinking age).

I'm still trying to think of something to do on my week off which starts next week. I'm thinking I'll probably just end up hanging out at home for most of it, probably try and get a start on my holiday projects. I figure working through my big C++ book should take at least a week and then I'll have to think of a project to work on that will test what I've learned. Then maybe if I have time I'll work on python. My other project is to get my chops back on guitar. Back in the day I used to have really good metal technique but I lost it when I stopped practicing two hours a day :/

Another thing that's been bothering lately is the people I know. I've begun to hate a lot of people I used to call friends lately. Most of these people I've known for years. I just have a the feeling I've grown tired of most the people I used to know. But on the other hand I've become much better friends with some people I didn't think I would haha. I've also learned about people and their priorities in friends which often involves me getting ditched for someone else. I'm kinda used to because people always used to bail on me (the old "oh we never invite you to anything because we don't think you'd go/you'd want to go home early" excuse) but it's started to happen with people I didn't think it would.

Probably the thing that's affecting me the most at the moment is the fact that when I move out of this house it will pretty much mean the end of Cactus Cadillac. I think it's really gotten to the point that we should just call it quits though. I'd rather do that then continue to play the same old tired songs over and over again week in week out waiting for gigs that will never show up. I had a talk with Yuki about it the other day and he pretty much feels the same way. It kinda feels like I've wasted the last 2 years of my life but on the other hand I guess it's given me a lot of experience dealing with people and I've learned a lot more about music in the process. I've already talked to Yuki about forming another sort of psychobilly/experimental kinda band and he's keen to get something going. Which is good but still leaves me the problem of finding a bass player (I have found someone who expressed interest but I'm not sure how serious she is about it O_O lol). I've thought about getting a double bass and playing it myself but then I'd have to find a guitar player. I've actually found that when I play double bass on stage I'm much more relaxed. I think with this band I'll try and do everything myself. I've found that relying on people is bollocks and I'd rather just run things myself.

Well I should probably try and get some sleep I guess, even though I really have nothing on today except perhaps washing and going to Chermside :/. I think this is the bad part about having three months of holidays and only have a job that gives me 3, maybe 4 shifts a week haha.

ps. Now I know my parents are cool with tattoos I can not wait to get more hahaha