So I'm lying in bed at 4am in the morning and it's just hit me that in 3 days I'll be moving back in with my parents O_O. I don't know why but I hadn't really thought about it that much until now. Hopefully it won't be for too long but who know, maybe I won't be able to get a new place as soon as I hope too. This got me thinking, are things going to be the same as when I used to live at home or is it going to be different. I'm not looking forward to having to check in and tell them where I am all the time :/

In other news I may be going to Hong Kong and Japan in January. While I was having dinner with a mate and his girlfriend the other day they kind of invited me to go to Hong Kong with them and I thought, hey if since I'll be living at home I should be able to save up a bit of money so maybe I can do this. I have a good feeling I will be going but I'm still waiting for the go ahead from Andrew so I can go look at getting my plane tickets. While I'm there I'm also planning on going to visit Yuki while he's on holiday in Japan. That'd be fucking sweet. Pretty much want to hang out with some weird greasers and buy beer from vending machines (yesss over the drinking age).

I'm still trying to think of something to do on my week off which starts next week. I'm thinking I'll probably just end up hanging out at home for most of it, probably try and get a start on my holiday projects. I figure working through my big C++ book should take at least a week and then I'll have to think of a project to work on that will test what I've learned. Then maybe if I have time I'll work on python. My other project is to get my chops back on guitar. Back in the day I used to have really good metal technique but I lost it when I stopped practicing two hours a day :/

Another thing that's been bothering lately is the people I know. I've begun to hate a lot of people I used to call friends lately. Most of these people I've known for years. I just have a the feeling I've grown tired of most the people I used to know. But on the other hand I've become much better friends with some people I didn't think I would haha. I've also learned about people and their priorities in friends which often involves me getting ditched for someone else. I'm kinda used to because people always used to bail on me (the old "oh we never invite you to anything because we don't think you'd go/you'd want to go home early" excuse) but it's started to happen with people I didn't think it would.

Probably the thing that's affecting me the most at the moment is the fact that when I move out of this house it will pretty much mean the end of Cactus Cadillac. I think it's really gotten to the point that we should just call it quits though. I'd rather do that then continue to play the same old tired songs over and over again week in week out waiting for gigs that will never show up. I had a talk with Yuki about it the other day and he pretty much feels the same way. It kinda feels like I've wasted the last 2 years of my life but on the other hand I guess it's given me a lot of experience dealing with people and I've learned a lot more about music in the process. I've already talked to Yuki about forming another sort of psychobilly/experimental kinda band and he's keen to get something going. Which is good but still leaves me the problem of finding a bass player (I have found someone who expressed interest but I'm not sure how serious she is about it O_O lol). I've thought about getting a double bass and playing it myself but then I'd have to find a guitar player. I've actually found that when I play double bass on stage I'm much more relaxed. I think with this band I'll try and do everything myself. I've found that relying on people is bollocks and I'd rather just run things myself.

Well I should probably try and get some sleep I guess, even though I really have nothing on today except perhaps washing and going to Chermside :/. I think this is the bad part about having three months of holidays and only have a job that gives me 3, maybe 4 shifts a week haha.

ps. Now I know my parents are cool with tattoos I can not wait to get more hahaha

So the last two days have been weird. Found out some odd stuff about people and had some weird stuff happen. Yesterday was drinking, sort of but not really going to a gig, sweet pizza and then sleep. But today was when it actually got odd. Got home at like 11 am, now I would think this is a reasonable time, and started talking to vic. Like 5 minutes later carter comes out slamming all the doors and shit because we woke him up AT 11 AM with our talking. So I'm like ok this is weird. Next thing I go to get a drink and look at my server near the fridge...and I notice the side panel has been completely bent. Like not an accidental oh sorry I stepped on it and bent but like totally fucked. Now when I left home yesterday it was fine so that means there were only two people who could have done it, carter or palsson. Now carter denies it but I still think it was him...I don't think palsson would do that even though I'm pretty sure he knows I think hes a dick.

Anyway I go to work and visit my parents and then I come home and BAM the tvs gone...Carters moved it to his room so only he can use it. Now this isn't that bad in itself but I connected my ps3 to the tv to play my games and I'm probably the only person who actually uses the tv. So I'm like fuck it I'm just going to take back everything he uses of mine, which leaves him with no internet and some other shit. That was it I decided I'm moving out, probably going to move back in with my parents for a little while and save up some money till the people I might be moving in with are ready.

In other news I finally got to try hell's pizza. Fucking great. I'm also thinking about working the rarely seen (and let's be honest rarely successful) Tom Midson magic on amon amarth chick at work. lol. We'll see what happens. My week long holiday is also coming up...but as my Melbourne trip was canceled I am left with nothing to do :/ (SUGGESTIONS....perhaps from my one reader...yes I'm looking at you).

Anyway that is all for now...Pretty sure there'll be more to write later in this week haha.

Yeah so I'm pretty bored right now, spent the night cleaning and drinking rum. So the rum actually made the cleaning go a little faster lol. Atm I'm having trouble deciding what tattoo I should get next my choice are this epic pic of batman on my left arm, the BZFOS logo on my right or the litany against fear on umm....somewhere lol. I'm thinking either batman or BZFOS until I figure out a good spot for the litany. I'll be able to get at least one pretty soon too as my work hours have almost doubled now that my boss has realized I'm on holidays. I really need to find a new job. Also made a big decision, though I know a lot of people would find it incredibly nerdy, that I'm going to make my right arm as music/misc tatts and my left arm as...comic book characters lol. I'm still giving thought to stretching my ears. Even though I'd like too, I worry stretching them too big so they don't heal up again.

In other news I thought of a fucking sweet song to cover (I ensure you if my friends listen to lyrics they'll lol) and I also had some new lyric ideas for some new songs. Lyrics are always the hardest part (for me at least). Writing a bunch of music is easy, its telling the story I have trouble with. I haven't been able to write a song since around march either, well thats not true I've written some but they never seem any good when I look at them again. Playing in a psychobilly band is also starting to get a little boring too, I want to add some more influences into my songs....not indie >_<. Also feeling like I want to play double bass more and more too...

I've also been giving a lot of thought to moving to a new place, tonight's cleaning only made me think about it more. Cleaned most of the god damn house myself, it's not that I hate cleaning I can do it if I have to. I just don't like people not doing their part. I may have someone who is interested in getting a new place with me but I'm not sure how serious she is about it. I'm really starting to hate living here, it's so far away from all my friends and getting to work is fucking annoying.

The fact that I'm actually on holidays is starting to sink in now, but no matter how hard I try I can't seem to get interested in my holiday "projects" lol. Although I'm thinking learning two new prog languages maybe a little ambitious. I've had to postpone or probably cancel my trip to Melbourne too :(.

I'm thinking it's about time I did something about my short temper as aswell...

So I'm typing this while I'm getting ready for work right. Lately there been three words that pretty much describe my life at the moment, I'm fucking bored. Feels like I'm returning to my old life of sitting in front of my computers 24/7. Now that uni is over I'm only working 3 days a week so the rest of the time I usually just sit at home. The only exciting part of the week is drinking with my friends on a friday/saturday night. Other than that I really have nothing going on, no end in sight for uni. I can't help but think...is this it?

So...Uni is almost over for another year and I have a pretty good feeling I'll be doing some of these subjects again next year haha. Only 2 exams left but the bad thing is one is gonna be pretty easy but the other is probably the hardest exam of this semester and I have to pass it. Apart from that life is pretty good really. Just bought an eee pc (which I'm writing this post on), the band is going pretty well, even though I still have writer's block when it comes to lyrics though, I'm finished uni so I have heaps more time to work now and I finally have more a life than I used too.

I'm looking forward to what is probably the closest thing I'll have to a holiday coming up in Janurary...but on the other hand I still have to get through the awful event that is christmas >_<. Getting my first tatt next week too which is gonna be sweet. I have a few ideas for some others I'd like to get this year. For some reason I had it in my mind that it was gonna be alot more expensive than it really is haha. Some people tell me not to get a band tattoo...I say BZFOS are worth it lol.

I can't wait to go to Melbourne lol

Nope, still don't make sense.

So yeah haven't been sleeping that well lately. Other than that played a sweet gig on the weekend, got danny and andy from BMC to sing one of their songs with us. Uni holidays are over but I still feel like its holidays, I've felt that was all semester though. It's like I never switched back from doing nothing mode to uni mode again. That and I kinda don't care about these subjects because they're stupid core subjects that I HAVE to do rather than stuff that more related to my degree. There's only one subject I really like this semester and unfortunately I have to do a large amount of study to stay on top of it, so it's hard finding the time to do it all. I think I need to be practicing some old stuff I've learnt though...if I don't when it comes to next semester and I'm actually doing really programming again i'll be screwed over. Barely scraping by atm with monies too, need to find a new job so bad...that or actually go to centrelink and apply for some kinda monies.

I finally started teaching again which is odd because I haven't done it in such a long time and I'm more used to teaching like 12 year olds and getting pissed off. The only problem is she won't let me refuse payment for the lessons which makes me feel like a jerk for taking her money. Another thing thats bothering me atm is people. I'll never understand them lol. No matter how much people try to explain stuff to me I'll never understand them...probably because I'm too awkward (AND HAVE NO STORIES, except for the one were that suzie chick ran after me with a beer...). It's probably also because I think stuff should make sense and when it comes to my interactions with people it rarely does.

In other news we're having a Halloween party and I cannot fucking wait to be billy the butcher >_< lol

Well it's been awhile since I posted and thought I should update this. I moved out awhile ago, it's been pretty good. Its just like living at with my parents but I have less money lol. I've also discovered why people like the weekend so much and what having a life is like, even though both these things cause me to have even less money. This has also led to meeting new people/making new friends which is not something I do often. Things are looking up for Cactus Cadillac (...FAMOUS) we've got a few gigs that should be all sorted soon and hopefully we'll be doing some more gigs outside of Brisbane. Probably not doing as well in uni as I should be though, I believe this links directly back to the weekend/life discovery. Good thing is this week a holiday so I can catch up in my study. In recent news I attended my high school friend's wedding on the weekend, it was both good and bad...good because of the open bar and seeing some old friends, bad because it cost me money, I had to see my sister and all her annoying friends and other reasons. Well I guess thats all for now...I'm sure there'll be more to say before this week is out though lol.

Finally got a chance to check out my mates new house yesterday, it was pretty cool. Had drinks, beat some noobs at brawl and played some music. So it was a pretty good night. However today I picked up a copy of Final Fantasy VIII which is pretty cool. Kinda getting sick of this doing nothing on the holidays business though, I need to get out more lol. Finally renewed my lisence again today. People have been telling me how much I need it so I finally caved in and got it again. I can see how it would be useful to have sometimes but I think I'm still gonna be catching the bus alot :/.

So last night I'm sitting at home doing nothing and steph's like come over and watch Tom goes to the mayor. I'm like ok sounds like a sweet deal i'll just get ready, get some drinks and get on the bus. So I'm walking to the bus and, not watching where i'm going, step on a huge stone in the construction site behind my house. Rolled my ankle. Apart from that the rest of the night was great, had some beers, watched Tom goes to the mayor (hello steven), saw an indie band (who actually weren't bad) i've never heard of and continued drinking. ok more later, time to find an ice pack.

Ok so this is the real first post on this journal. According to my friend theres always something to write about so here goes, this was my day. So I wake up to my alarm at 6 and I put on an episode of the big bang theory and feel asleep. Wake back up around 7 and shower, go downstairs have a real meal for breakfast for the first time in ages (eggs, bacon, toast, coffee) and go back upstairs. Put on some Gundam to watch while I eat. Half an hour goes by and I'm informed that soon tradesmen will arrive to start renovating the bathrooms in my house or something. This was somewhat annoying as they make alot of noise and it's early still. So I watch a few episodes of Gundam and watch 28 weeks later. Lunch was an old packet of ramen I found in the back of the cupboard. Around this time pretty much the 3 people I actually talk to come on msn so I start talking. More Gundam, another movie and a bit more talking. Want to go out drinking but everyone is busy/out of reach for some reason. So Liz is like, "Make a journal, that'll give you something to do." so thats what I've done....ok time for eats.

So I'm real bored so I made this.